Some thoughts

Blog ini dah bersawang, tapi tak pe takde siapa perasan pun.

Apapun aku nak merekodkan fikiran aku pada masa ini untuk renungan aku masa hadapan. Bila aku renung kembali mungkin aku gelak mungkin tidak. So, ini dia apa aku nak cakap.

Aku heran dengan orang yang tak bersyukur dan yang tak bertanggungjawab dengan amanah yang agak mewah yang diberi. Untuk lebih spesifik aku nak mengata sikit (Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa aku) mengenai kawan-kawan aku yang telah diberi biasiswa untuk belajar tapi tidak habis. Kebelakangan ni adalah dalam 3 - 5 orang kawan-kawan aku begitu. Ada dua yang telah ke luar negara dan tak balik-balik sampai sekarang dan kalau ikut kiraan yang sorang tu dah 8 tahun pegi tak balik lagi. Kalau buat degree atau Phd, dah dua qualifications boleh dapat. Yang sorang tu lagi tak sedar diri. Mula-mula dulu dia tak dapat pun tawaran biasiswa pegi oversea, tapi disebabkan pertalian persaudaraan dan politik maka tiba satu surat dari boss kerajaan tertinggi untuk menawarkan biasiswa ke luar negeri. Sekarang ni tgh enjoy kat oversea tapi macam tak nak balik. Nasib baik dia dah habis, tapi haruslah dia balik sebab dia telah guna duit-duit orang yang membayar income tax.

Yang lain tu sudah kembali bertugas tapi tidak habis lagi. Agak tidak sesuai lah bagi mereka ini untuk menasihati orang lain untuk habiskan pelajaran mereka sedangkan mereka sendiri tidak habis lagi. Sebagai role model mereka tak seharusnya di contohi. Tapi yang sorang tu telah mendapat tokoh pengajar terbaik (aku tidak dengki dengan dia disini).

Apapun apabila kita ada orang bayar untuk pendidikan kita, diberi elaun sara hidup dan diberi gaji penuh, ianya sepatutnya menjadi motivasi atau dorongan untuk menjadi investment yang baik.


One more thought, I'm not penetrable. 3 people tried so far but they can't get in. I don't know why.

Sekian

HOT

The new batch of royalties are hot.

I don't know how people can take it...

It was only the head yet it was painful. How do people do it?

THANKSGIVING

Let it be documented here that I would like to thank Allah swt. for fulfilling the following 'doas' I've made:

1. For making my PhD journey a successful one and a breeze. Only God knows how many times I've prayed to him for these starting way back in 1999, 2000, 2002 in Mekah, Madinah and continued until I completed it last year.

2. For making my nephew move back to stay with his mom. I've made doa for this during the fasting month and one day he decided to move.

3. For enabling me to pay my credit cards, full amount, all time

to be continued

UPDATE - RANDOM THOUGHTS

It's been a few weeks since my last update...who reads this blog anyway. Nevertheless, since it's a journal it is meant to be reflected upon later.

Here are some of the things that are on my mind right now:

I saw a Malay wedding album, on Facebook, of somebody I don't even know but a friend of one of my FB friends. One of the pictures in the album shows the bride throwing the bouquet of flowers to her unmarried friends at the back. I really do not know to react. Should I be shocked or should I be worried or should I not react at all? Anyways, I don't think we should be copying the West. Like it or not our wedding culture has changed. Just 2 days ago my friend told me that at a wedding he attended they now serve Soto, Laksa...hmm.

I have the hots for 3 of the people I work for.

I saw Oprah's Whitney Houston interview last night. It was really good. The woman loved Bobby Brown so much that she was willing to sacrifice her career. Whitney said Bobby was her drug.

I've come the a phase that I wish I was my own boss. I'm tired of people telling what I have to do. I cannot afford to be my own boss.

My new sister in law is a bitch.

Update

Tak tau apa nak tulis so I tulis apa je yg ada dalam kepala aku.

1. Aku sekarang subscribe Wimax untuk guna kat office aku sebab Internet kat office ni slow nak mampos. Jadi sebelum aku humban CPU ofis ni kat lantai dan lepas tu kena tindakan disiplin baik aku subscribe broadband. Laju giler kalau banding dengan connection kat office. Dah lama memang nak subscribe tapi coverage belum ada lagi masa tu, sekarang dah ada. Ironi kan, tempat kerja aku ni ada perkataan Teknologi pada nama dia, tapi teknologi macam haram.

2. Raya ari tu macam biasa jer walaupun ibu aku baru saja pulang ke rahmatullah. Aku memang tak brapa suka beraya kat sini, aku lebih suka beraya overseas sebab orang2 sana akan berusaha untuk memeriahkan suasana hari raya. Kampung pulak dah takde dan nadi keluarga pun dah takde. Dulu nadinya adalah nenek aku. Lepas dia tak de Raya dah kurang makna.

3. Aku tengah sangap ni, hmmm

Update

My mom passed away on Thursday after six weeks of knowing that she had cancer. BB left for the States the next day. The loneliness is creeping in since the two people that loves and loved me the most are not with me.

This year there has been a lot of death of people I know and people the world knows. First it was my colleague, then two of my colleagues' mothers, followed by Michael Jackson, then Yasmin Ahmad then my mother and on the same day Ustaz Asri of Rabbani, then my former headmaster from secondary school and recently Ted Kennedy.