Update

The next few months is not looking too good for me. Mom has strong signs of having cancer, lymphoma and has been in the hospital more than 2 weeks. She getting weaker by the day and the doctor said her organs are failing. I've been going to the hospital after work and it's quite tiring because of the distance and the jam.

BB is leaving for the US this Friday for 2 years. I will miss BB dearly and will worry about BB there. BB is old enough but to me BB is a baby, my baby.

Hola

Yeay, I'm in Barcelona. Glad that I decided to defy orders.

Update

A few updates:

1. Fake

A few months back I sort of encountered two people who had faked their degrees. One of them is a colleague who was sent to the UK to do her Masters. She came back in 2005 claiming to have graduated but for 4 years she failed to show any evidence of her graduation i.e. the certificate itself until a few months back when she produced a xerox copy of the cert but without showing the original. Upon checking with the university she was only given a certificate for taking a few courses. Anyways this person talks like she knows everything and lying to her is similar to breathing.

Another person is a student who had lied to her family members and probably to her employee that she had obtained her degree from the place that I work. One day I received an email from her brother asking me to verify her sister's claim of graduation. Based on many circumstances and evidences he doubted that the sister ever graduated. Upon checking it is confirmed that she did not complete her program, she left the program during the 3rd year and never came back. While being bombarded with questions and confrontations from her siblings she even faked an email from her to me and from me to her back. A liar will always be a liar, lying is like I said earlier breathing to these people. Mind you these two people are Muslim women who wearstudung.


2. Vacation

BB and I took a vacation to Siem Reap recently through Air Asia Go Holiday. We stayed at an excellent 4 star hotel and visited of course the temples: Angkor Wat, Angkor Thom and Bayon. The Cambodians are very nice people and they can speak English very well yet receiving Engligh Language lessons only two hours a week in schools. Unlike our own kind who learned English a few hours a week for 11 years and still can't utter a word of English. The Cambodians' extrinsic and instrinsic motivations must be very high.

Random Thoughts

When I was small I was never their favorite. In fact my intuition tells me that my arrival was never planned, I was more like an accident nobody wanted. I never asked for anything for I know I would not get it, thus I continued not to ask. I was twice or maybe more chased with a knife and a 'parang' for saying things I shouldn't say and for doing things I was too young to handle. I was twice or maybe more called a bastard and one day I replied 'that would make him a bastard too'. The shock was apparent on the face for it was not known then that I have already learned what bastard means. Now this bastard child is the one to be dependent upon. Do I care I was not their favorite? No I don't. I'm glad I'm not their favorite because they are not mine either.

Mimpi

Malam semalam aku mimpi aku tengah driving pada time malam. Tgh2 driving tiba ada tangan kurus macam ranting datang dari belakang pengang telinga aku pastu muka aku. Lepas tu tangan itu terus grab steering kreta dan dia pusing ke kanan nak bagi aku accident. Aku melawan sambil baca Al-Fatihah. Aku terus sedar, B terus peluk aku. Kemudian aku mimpi lagi, kali ni Nicole Pussycat Doll pulak muncul. Pastu aku lupa apa jadi.

On a different note, pagi2 B bagi tau dia sudah dapat tempat di negara Obama. So bulan Ogos nanti dia pergi. Xde siapa lah nanti akan sayang aku macam dia sayang aku. Macam mana plak dia kat sana nanti. Kat sini aje lepas satu jam berpisah dah sms kata rindu sesangat. Tapi takpe, dia dah besar, bukan budak kecik. Mungkin aku takde dia akan tiba2 terasa bebas. Macam aku dulu dengan scandal aku. 3 bulan aku tanggung rindu sampai sakit. Lepas tu tiba2 aku terasa bebas sebab tak rindu lansung kat dia. How now brown cow?

On the same note, bab pegi-pegi, aku plak sudah diluluskan untuk pegi ke bandar Olympic 1992 July ini. Yeay...tapi kena top-up duit sendiri, banyak plak tu. Tapi tak pe, untuk CV aku jugak nanti. Gaji aku pun dah ceiling.

On similar note, Jemaat ni aku ke negeri di bawah bayu. Sudah bertahun2 aku tak ke situ. Tapi paling seronok aku dapat makan di lounge emas, enak sekali dan dapat minum teh tarik yg memang sedap. Walaupun ini cheap and free thrill, small things like this balance out your life.

Saya Tak Nak Jadi Hipokrit

About two weeks ago when watching Melodi I saw this young Muslim actress wearing a dress that exposed her shoulders. When the reporter ask her about the way she was dressed she replied ' Saya tak nak jadi hipokrit'.

Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary defines the word hypocrite as follow:

1. a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion
2. a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings

Does her excuse for not wanting to be a hypocrite warrant her the right to expose her 'aurat'?

Am I a hypocrite for trying to be discreet in my sexual preference and at the same time being a Muslim?

Sugar

I've been reading a blog belonging to a person who I used to work for...well, I actually have never worked for him, more for his colleagues and I think I have never spoken to him more than 3 minutes. This person was a bit on the chubby side but he has a very pleasant personality. Based on his Facebook photos he seems to have lost some weight. Recently I got to know that he had his right leg (below the knee) amputated because of diabetes. To say I was shocked is not completely true. Indeed I was shocked but more because this person is still young. He's only 33. He posted pictures of the gradual changes that happened to first his 'small' toe than to his entire right leg. Did not gross me out at all, in fact I like looking at such pictures. According to the title of one of his entries, he wrote 'Challenged but Definitely not Defeated'. He indeed has the right spirit.

On an unrelated incident, today I fried two eggs and partly two of my fingers. Adoi