Mimpi

Malam semalam aku mimpi aku tengah driving pada time malam. Tgh2 driving tiba ada tangan kurus macam ranting datang dari belakang pengang telinga aku pastu muka aku. Lepas tu tangan itu terus grab steering kreta dan dia pusing ke kanan nak bagi aku accident. Aku melawan sambil baca Al-Fatihah. Aku terus sedar, B terus peluk aku. Kemudian aku mimpi lagi, kali ni Nicole Pussycat Doll pulak muncul. Pastu aku lupa apa jadi.

On a different note, pagi2 B bagi tau dia sudah dapat tempat di negara Obama. So bulan Ogos nanti dia pergi. Xde siapa lah nanti akan sayang aku macam dia sayang aku. Macam mana plak dia kat sana nanti. Kat sini aje lepas satu jam berpisah dah sms kata rindu sesangat. Tapi takpe, dia dah besar, bukan budak kecik. Mungkin aku takde dia akan tiba2 terasa bebas. Macam aku dulu dengan scandal aku. 3 bulan aku tanggung rindu sampai sakit. Lepas tu tiba2 aku terasa bebas sebab tak rindu lansung kat dia. How now brown cow?

On the same note, bab pegi-pegi, aku plak sudah diluluskan untuk pegi ke bandar Olympic 1992 July ini. Yeay...tapi kena top-up duit sendiri, banyak plak tu. Tapi tak pe, untuk CV aku jugak nanti. Gaji aku pun dah ceiling.

On similar note, Jemaat ni aku ke negeri di bawah bayu. Sudah bertahun2 aku tak ke situ. Tapi paling seronok aku dapat makan di lounge emas, enak sekali dan dapat minum teh tarik yg memang sedap. Walaupun ini cheap and free thrill, small things like this balance out your life.

Saya Tak Nak Jadi Hipokrit

About two weeks ago when watching Melodi I saw this young Muslim actress wearing a dress that exposed her shoulders. When the reporter ask her about the way she was dressed she replied ' Saya tak nak jadi hipokrit'.

Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary defines the word hypocrite as follow:

1. a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion
2. a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings

Does her excuse for not wanting to be a hypocrite warrant her the right to expose her 'aurat'?

Am I a hypocrite for trying to be discreet in my sexual preference and at the same time being a Muslim?

Sugar

I've been reading a blog belonging to a person who I used to work for...well, I actually have never worked for him, more for his colleagues and I think I have never spoken to him more than 3 minutes. This person was a bit on the chubby side but he has a very pleasant personality. Based on his Facebook photos he seems to have lost some weight. Recently I got to know that he had his right leg (below the knee) amputated because of diabetes. To say I was shocked is not completely true. Indeed I was shocked but more because this person is still young. He's only 33. He posted pictures of the gradual changes that happened to first his 'small' toe than to his entire right leg. Did not gross me out at all, in fact I like looking at such pictures. According to the title of one of his entries, he wrote 'Challenged but Definitely not Defeated'. He indeed has the right spirit.

On an unrelated incident, today I fried two eggs and partly two of my fingers. Adoi

Hangat

I do live by some principles, though not all the principles I live by I can really articulate whether in writing or orally. It's probably just natural that as you get older and more matured (matured ke?) these principles are carved into your head and some of them you can un-carve or re-carve (what crap have I written here?). One of the principles I realise I live by not long ago is that don't ask for help when you can help yourself first. The other principle I follow is not to have an affair with the people you work with or you work for. The whole point of this crappy entry is I have the hots for someone or probably a couple of people I work for. How one? The End.

Sawang

Lama tak tulis apa2. Tak tau nak tulis apa.

Al-Fatihah

Hari ini pada jam 3.45 pagi kawan baik aku telah pulang ke rahmatullah meninggalkan seorang suami dan empat orang anak berumur, 14, 13, dan dua lagi masih sekolah rendah. Pada masa kematian suami dia telah terdengar kawan aku ini dalam keadaan nazak dan dengan cepat dia panggil anak-anak kedalam bilik. Kawan aku sempat berkata sesuatu kepada keluarga dia dan lepas itu dia terus tidak ada dengan cepat dan senang. Sebelum ini kawan aku ni tak de sakit apa pun cuma dia kena makan pil hypertension. Jiran doktor mengesahkan dia telah mengalami stroke pada umur 44. Kawan aku ni tak lah gemok tapi mungkin penyakit keturunan. Siapa pulak yang akan jaga anak-anak dia yang masih sangat perlukan seorang emak? Dia ni memang baik dan antara kawan yang kami boleh trust. Kebelakangan ini aku pernah jugak terpikir siapa diantara kawan seangkatan yang pernah dulu satu department akan mati dulu. Tak sangka pula aku dia dan cepat pulak, sebelum kami sempat pencen dia dah pergi. Al-Fatihah

Berdarah

Semalam aku 'pooping' berdarah. Aku intai 'poop' aku aku tengok airnya dah merah dan darah pun masih menitis. Bukan berdarah sebab aku kena sontot ok, sebab poop aku keras. Rectum aku tercalar. Nasib baik tak sakit, perit sikit jer.